Deven Lamarquis, born Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Deven, forever sleeping with the angels!!! Happy Birthday Deven!!!!
Deven Lamarquis

My Precious Angel Deven!!!

 
My angel deven was born still on september 29th, 2004. We were so excited when we found out that we was having a baby. We bought a new house and decorated every inch of devens room. I stenciled little animals on the wall and wrote some special words on the wall as well. We had a rough pregnancy but it was survivable. My baby was so perfect he even waved at me a couple of times and even smiled to me in the ultrasound.
ON september 27th, 2004 i went to my doctor appt. and told them that my baby was not moving that much. They told me that his heartrate was 141 and that he was fine. that him not moving was normal. i continued to notice that he was not moving all through the week. On saturday we went to a auburn football game. My husband was so excited he just kept talking to my belly and telling him everything that was happening.
On september 29th, 2004 we went back to the doctor for our weekly checkup. we went into the ultrasound room and the technician started looking for a heartbeat. She could not find one she lied to us and told us she was going to go adn get some paper for her machine. 15 minutes passed and she returned she told us that she wanted the doc to look and see. My husband asked her if she saw a heartbeat and she shook her head no. i knew then that my baby was dead. the doctor came in and he looked and lookedd and looked but he could not find a heartbeat either. I knew my baby was dead but WHY??
me and my husband went to the park before time to go to the hospital and we just cried we called our families and we cried some more. we returned to the hospital and they started getting me ready for the c-section. I told them that i wanted to be knocked out because i did not think that i could handle the pain of not hearing my baby cry after carrying him that long. When i woke up in recovery the nurse said you had a beautiful baby boy. i just cried and hoped it was all a dream but i knew when i got back to the room that it was not. my baby had died. the doctor continued to lie and tell us he did not know why my baby died. On monday november 8th we found out a reason he had a bloodclot in his cord. the doctor confessed that had he of listened to me at week 37 my baby would be alive today. We buried my precious angel on October 3rd, 2004.
 

 

Deven you are so precious to me and daddy!!!!

 

Mommy and baby angel Deven Sleeping forever!!!!!

 
To Mommy, Love Angel

I once was going to be born and this I couldn't wait,
I knew that everyone was expecting me, I would try not to be late.

But I really wasn't sure what was on the other side,
I tried to accept what was happening but I knew I couldn't hide.
I couldn't help but wonder who my parents were to be,
I knew for sure that no matter what, they would always love me.

So I thought about it for a while, but I knew I had to leave,
I went on to another place, it is so beautiful it's hard to believe.

I had a job to do, but it wasn't here on earth,
I am so sorry you had to miss it, the day of my birth.
I wanted so bad to stay and be at home with you,
But I knew that there was something up here that I had to do.

I am now a Guardian Angel and I hope that you are proud,
I watch over you and Daddy, I peek down through the clouds.
I hope you know how much I love you, and how hard it was to go
I miss you so much everyday, but I am sure you already know.

So please don't ever forget me, as I will do the same,
You know this wasn't your fault, there is no one to blame.
God needed me to be by his side and to take good care of you,
So there is no need to be sad now and no need to be blue.

If you ever get lonely, just look up at the sky,
Like if you had a thought of me or just needed to say hi.
I am so happy with the way things are even though it may not seem,
I talk to you in the night time, I touch you when you dream.
I want to see the same for you, give a smile for me today,
Because I know that we will meet again in some other sort of way.

I will be up here waiting for you, to open the gates real wide
And help you to come home to Heaven, to take a step inside.
I thank you for loving me so much, please believe that this is true,
And there is no one I could ever love more Mommy, as much as I love you.


~Author Unknown~


DEAR MOMMY
Before we said our first hello,
the time had already passed.
For when you held me in your arms,
I had gone to heaven to rest.

I felt angelic tears down my checks,
and I watched you as you weeped.
I wish I could of changed it all,
Your tears touched my soul so deep.

But mommy when you are sad,
Please be assured I know.
For death cannot take away your love,
it will only contiune to grow.

Time and distance cannot erase,
a love and a bond so deep.
There is no bond that can compare,
and in your heart I'll keep.

When you are feeling far away,
and missing me so much.
Close your eyes and feel my wings,
their soft and gentle touch.

Or at night as you sleep,
I will join you in a dream.
You will see me standing close to you,
and we'll be lost within my wings.

So my dear Mommy,
as you go from day to day,
Find comfort in the knowledge,
I am never that far away.
~Author Unknown~



If we could have a lifetime wish,
A dream that could come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts
For yesterday and you.
A thousand words can't bring you back,
We know because we've tried.
And neither will a million tears,
We know because we've cried.
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too.
We never wanted memories,
We only wanted you.
A million times we've needed you,
A million times we've cried.
If love alone could've saved you,
You never would have died.
In life we loved you deeply,
In death we love you still.
In our hearts you hold a place,
No one else will ever fill.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
Part of us went with you,
The day God took you home.

author unknown


dear deven ,
if you can see me now know that i love you and miss you very much. I cry for you because i love you and miss you. Please be a good boy. I lOve you always.

mommy
 

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