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^i^ Please tread softly an Angel lives here ^i^
~ Preston has been playing in Heaven for 3 1/2 years~
Missed and loved more than words could ever say. Been playing in Heaven as long as he was alive.
Hard to believe it has been 2 years since I touched my son's face for the last time ever. Hard to believe 2 years ago I burried my child. Hard to believe this pain will never go away that this nightmare will never end. Preston is missed so much that it hurts so much it is hard to breathe sometimes. Loved beyond words love that wil never end. ^i^
Preston now weighs in at a whopping 13 pounds 7 ounces as of October 7th. He is a very active little guy. He has been sleeping through the night since October 27th. He loves to swing and watch his big brother run around like a wild man.
4 Month Check up...the Moose weighs 17lbs and is 26 inches long now. He got his second round of shots and was not thrilled. He is starting cereal and fruits and enjoying it. He is already in 6-9 month clothes and growing. Dakota only has 10 lbs on him now...watch out big brother.
The 6 month checkup...well he is a whopping 19lbs 12oz on February 5, 2004. 28 inches long and 45cm big ole head. He wasn't able to get his shots cause it turns out he has RSV. As of February 12, 2004 he has had 2 steroid shots and 2 breathing treatments and is on 3 differnt meds. to clear it up. I think he is on the mend but we are keeping an eye on him. His follow up appt is February 19, 2004 and that is when he should get his 6 month shots. He weighed in again today (12th) at 20lbs 2oz and we were told we can now turn his carseat to forward facing. He is otherwise a normal 6 month old he has started to sit on his own and loves to play w/ his toys and watch his big brother!!! Update as of February 19, 2004 he was given a clean bill of health and finally got his 6 month shots. Ouch. He did great actually and seems to be getting over the RSV wonderfully.
9 month check up ~ Preston is now 23 pounds 30 inches long and his head is 46 cm. He is eating table food now. He hasn't mastered crawling yet but is scooting and rolling all over the place. He cut his first tooth (finally) on April 30th it is the cutest thing ever. He loves to stand up and hold onto things including his big brother. He has a full head of dark hair and it won't be long before the first hair cut. His fave thing to do is take baths w/ his big brother he splashes all around like a fish. He is growing so big so fast and I love every minute of it!!
Preston is now One Year Old!! Wow, the year has flown. He weighs in at 25lbs and is 31 1/2 inches long. He is a solid little guy. He is taking a few steps and will be walking before long I am sure. He is a wonderful baby/toddler and this year has been the best ever. He says mama, dada and ni ni (for night night) among other unknown sounds. He loves to wrestle w/ his brother sometimes a little to much. We can't wait to watch him grow in this next year.
14 Months ~ Yahoo!! Guess who is walking!! Finally he is walking and there is no stopping him now. Preston has changed so much and it is hard to believe he is a toddler now. Where did the time go. Other news, he will be a big brother in April 2005!!! His next Dr's appt. is in Novemeber and I will update more than.
19 months old ~ Well the Moose is 29lbs now and 33 inches tall. He is really starting to talk well and we can figure out what he wants...mostly!! He loves to blow kisses to everyone and say goodbye to them. Him and his brother get along as well as 2 boys can which means wrestle mania at our house most days.
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It has been Five long months since Preston became an Angel. Every day seems harder and harder but we get through them. I have decided to change up this site to add what is going on now with our family. All the things we are doing In Preston's memory. He is always with us never forgotten. We love and miss him more than we could ever say. Big Brother Dakota misses him so much they were peas in a pod, partners in crime. It is hard for him to really grasp what has happened.
Love and hugs to our baby boy Preston!!!
~~~~Bereaved Parents Wish List~~~~~
I wish my child hadn't died. I wish I had him back.
I wish you wouldn't be afraid to speak my child's name. My child
lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that he was
important to you also.
If I cry and get emotional when you talk about my child, I wish you
knew that it isn't because you have hurt me. My child's death is the
cause of my tears. You have talked about my child and you have
allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both.
Being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so I wish you wouldn't
shy away from me. I need you now more than ever.
I need diversions, so I do want to hear about you, but I also want
you to hear about me. I might be sad and I might cry, but I wish you
would let me talk about my child; my favorite topic of the day.
I know that you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my
child's death pains you too. I wish you would let me know these
things through a phone call, a card or note, or a real big hug.
I wish you wouldn't expect my grief to be over. These first years
are traumatic for me, but I wish you could understand that my grief
will never be over. I will suffer the death of my child until the day
I die.
I am working hard in my recovery, but I wish you could understand
that I will never fully recover. I will always miss my child and I
will always grieve that she/he is dead.
I wish you wouldn't expect me "not to think about it" or "be
happy". Neither will happen for a very long time, so don't frustrate
yourself.
I don't want to have a "Pity party", but I do wish you would let me
grieve. I must hurt before I can heal.
I wish you understood how my life has shattered. I know it is
miserable for you to be around me when I'm feeling miserable. Please
be as patient with me as I am with you.
When I say, "I'm doing okay", I wish you could understand that I
don't "feel" okay and that I struggle daily.
I wish you knew that all of the grief reactions I'm having are very
normal. Depression, anger, hopelessness and overwhelming sadness are
all to be expected. So please excuse me when I'm quiet and withdrawn
or irritable and cranky.
Your advice to "take it one day at a time" is excellent advice.
However, a day is too much and too fast for me right now. I wish you
could understand that I'm doing good to handle an hour at a time.
Please excuse me if I seem rude, certainly not my intent. Sometimes
the world around me goes too fast and I need to get off. When I walk
away, I wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend time alone.
I wish you understood that grief changes people. When my child died,
a big part of me died with her/him. I am not the same person I was
before my child died and I will never be that person again.
I wish very much that you could understand ~ understand my loss and
my grief. But, I pray daily that you will never understand.
--Poem from Compassionate Friends.
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