In Loving Memory of:
Zachariah Matthew
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Zachariah was born still on Tuesday April 20, 2004 from 11:12-11:50am after a heart wrencing two days. I was 20 wks. & 6 days pregnant, they put he was 8.59 in. long from crown to rump in the report I got. I never got a chance to see him or hold him. What made it hurt even worse was the fact that I never got to see my angel or bury him. The doctors never gave me the option. So therefore I'll never know what happened with my precious baby angel. I just wish I would've gotten to say goodbye to him.
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We love you Zachariah
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In Loving Memory of Jeremy Ray Cogar
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My ex hit me in my belly on April 18th because I wasn't feeling well & I leaned on him so he punched me in my stomach because he didn't want me 2 lean on his shoulder & is sayin I tried to hit him in the privates. This took place in the Kanawha Valley mall in front of the waldon book store during a magic card tournament where one of his friends was there who later denied seeing anything (Thanks Hunt), which is a lie because he came in there and asked me if I was ok and comforted me. Shortly later after goin to see my sons father (not david), my belly began hurting even more so I went to the hospital and was told I was fine & that I had UTI. All the dr's did was listen to my heart & lungs & sent me home. That night I went through labor "unknowingly" except the pain was the most intense pain I had ever went through & I knew something was wrong really wrong I could feel it so I returned to ER. After hours of not knowing what was going on & the dr's & nurses ignoring all my questions & not telling me anything at all. Then my dr finally came in & told me the hardest thing I'll ever hear that they were unable to find my precious angel's heartbeat. He told me that I had showed trauma to my uterus & I DID NOT have a UTI, that my pain was due to me being in premature labor. Sometime during that night towards early morning zachariah's heart had stopped beating & our blood had mixed together. My blood is A- and zachariah's fathers blood wasn't therefore it made my blood & zachariah's not match & when I went into labor our rh antibodies mixed. If my dr would've done my bloodwork I may have known I had rh - blood but he didn't do it. My world felt like it was over I no longer wanted to live I went into severe depression I felt I had nothing to live for anymore. I lost my world that day. To this day I still have panic attacks Zachariah was the only person in this world I wanted. He was the only thing that mattered to me, I wanted him more than anything. I would have done anything to keep him. My ex was able to take my world of happiness & Angel away from me & BRAG about it & never cared that he took an innocent human being, my innocent baby's life away. I never said he meant to kill my son but the fact is he did hit me in my belly & it did cause me to go into premature labor ultimately taking my sons life. To this day he has people harrassin me about the situation & acting like I am a liar & acting like David is so innocent. Why would anyone lie about how they lost a baby. I just wish people could take a step back and think about things before they go and hurt people with their lies. I will always remember my precious angel & LOVE him with every bit of my heart. I just wish I could know what kind of an amazing man my little boy would've grown into & I wonder if he would've been a sweet guy like his step-daddy. Mommy loves you Zachariah... We all love you..xoxoxoxoxo
email - dinks_baby_4life@yahoo.com
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